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Control Freak

Love Spanks weekend is officially over.  It was fun and slightly insane and highly educational.

Among other things, I have learned that I am a control freak.

I probably already knew that, but it really hit home to me over this past weekend.

I think that one of the reasons I self-published was that I didn’t want to lose control of my work. Where does editing (other than grammatical stuff) become someone else’s voice instead of the writer’s? (I struggled with that in a creative writing class, too.  Just because that was how the prof thought it should be written didn’t make it right.)

And that’s why, if anything I write ever becomes a movie, I want to write the screenplay and have final say in everything. It’s my vision.

(Over-possessive? Maybe. But I can’t shake the horror of Bladerunner from my mind — it bore no resemblance whatsoever to the book that it was supposedly based on, and I don’t want anything like that to happen to my creation.)

That is also why I’ve been leery of having guest posts on my blog: I want to be in control of the content.

Yep. I’m a control freak.

This whole Love Spanks weekend brought it fully into focus, though.

I love Ana dearly — she’s a great person and a terrific author. And an incredible organizer of awesome events. (Seriously!  She should give classes in organizing online events.)


(Yes, there is always a “but” isn’t there?)

I discovered that I am even more possessive of my blog than I had first thought.

Possessive and territorial.

It was bad enough that I was posting the Love Spanks logo which was totally outside of my genre and the image (brand) that I am trying to build.  I don’t mind stepping outside my genre (it’s good for a writer to get out of his or her comfort zone) but the intrusion of foreign objects into my blog space was far more difficult for me to handle than I had expected.  (See? I told you it was educational – I learned something about myself.)

(It wasn’t the “sexiness” of the picture that bothered me, by the way – it was the spanking part.  That is so far out of what I write that it might as well come from another planet.)

And then came a template for the event.

Four hundred fifty words that aren’t mine and that don’t relate at all to what I write.

Four hundred fifty words that belong to someone else before you even get to mine.

I wanted to cry.
I wanted to blow something up.
I wanted to flip tables and rage quit.

But I didn’t.

I put them there and I hated myself for doing it.

(And I promised myself that I would work on getting a second blog up:  an erotica blog, a blog that more closely matches the theme and brand of the event, a blog that won’t be as intensely close to my heart as this one is so that the next time – if I get invited back for another event – I won’t go through this again.)

At the time, I felt like I was selling out, although now that I’ve had more time to think it through I realized that I wasn’t – what I was doing was following through on a commitment of sorts.

(Granted, I had no idea when this started that I’d be putting someone else’s pictures and words on my blog, which is why, when I do a science fiction and fantasy blog hop thingie later this year – probably in May – I’m going to have stuff available as options/suggestions/ideas, but not as requirements.)

So, yeah, I’m a possessive, territorial control freak.

Which leads me to a question for other writers out there who may be reading this:

Am I the only one who feels like this or do others struggle with the same issues?  If you do, how do you deal with them?

And if I am the only one, why doesn’t it bother anyone else?


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Love Spanks and Brand

Earlier this month I did some musing about branding based on what little I understand about it – mostly that it deals with recognition and expectation.

I may have mentioned Love Spanks at the time, as well. 

Since then, I have decided to use an excerpt from an unfinished novel (don’t pretend that you don’t have a bunch of those around!) rather than something more… erotic… written for the occasion.

I did this for a couple reasons.

One: I’m lazy.

Two: I don’t write erotica, at least, not under this name.  (Well, not as such.  There may be some scenes now and then, but…)

My brand (that I hope to create) is one of fantasy that is mostly G rated, maybe some PG-13.  (Okay, Sanguine might tip over into R territory, but that’s the exception rather than the rule, and even in it the sex, although integral to what happens between the two men, is not the focus of the plot.)

So, anyhow, back to Love Spanks.

In a conversation with Ana, the organizer, I mentioned the name of the event, because I was worried about reader expectations: there is no spanking in my excerpt.  (There isn’t any spanking in any of my books.)

She told me not to worry because most of them wouldn’t have spanking in them, which made me ask if the name was appropriate or if it would set up false expectations, and she said that it was a brand.  (She does write F/F spanking fiction.)

So, yes, the logo for this event


fits her brand perfectly.

But it doesn’t fit mine. (Er, my brand to be, that is.  Sheesh! Now I feel like I’m going to be marrying it.)  It looks wildly out of place on my blog.

I suppose that gets it noticed, but it’s also sort of… jarring.

(I swear, by the time she does something like this again I’m going to have my erotica blog (under a pen name) up and running.  It would make my life so much simpler!)

So, I’m slowly learning about creating my brand, mostly by learning what it isn’t, both as recognition and expectation.






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