Drained

So, another month has begun, I’ve had two days off, and I’m feeling like a failure because I’ve gotten pretty much nothing done.

Nothing creative, anyhow.

Never mind that Tuesday evening and most of Wednesday were spent in a battle with my digestive system (self-diagnosed mild case of food poisoning) I still feel as if I should have been able to write about 7500 words and decorate for Yule (I did get the decorations out of the back room of the basement) and make half a dozen or so Pocket Letters and…

Yeah.  I do tend to have really unrealistic expectations for myself.

I didn’t organize Book 6 of The Academy of the Accord, either. (I opened the main Word doc, though, does that count as a start?)

And I thought about how to make up for the months that I didn’t hit my 1k a Day goal. (There’s a chart involved.)

But none of those thoughts or plans seemed to make it out of my head and into the real world.

I need to find a way to change that.

I also need to not tie my self worth into my productivity.

It’s good to have goals, and to be focused on reaching them.

But there are times when nothing gets accomplished.

Always have been.  Always will be.

But there are also times when I conquer the world before noon.

Always have been.  Always will be.

I need to remember this, and be gentle with myself when I have days where I do nothing.

It doesn’t mean I’m a bad person, or worthless.  It just means my battery is low and I need to recharge.

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One response to “Drained

  1. Sounds like something I need to remember, too…

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