Nothing like being 9k behind after the first week
According to the stats page I should be at 15000 words by the end of the day today. I’m currently sitting at about six thousand words and have to leave for work in about an hour, so that is just not going to happen.
But since I have a personal goal of 60k this month I should be at 18000 words so I’m actually 12k below where I want to be.
I’ve been managing to get two to three hundred words written before work the last few days. Not much, but better than nothing. I’m off tomorrow and Wednesday (and have a write in on Wednesday evening) so I’m hoping to narrow the gap before I go back to work on Thursday.
I’ve figured out what the problem is, though.
Right now I’m writing some stuff that is necessary but not interesting. I’m setting the scene, creating the backdrop for the main story. And since settings aren’t my strong suit, it’s been sucking my enthusiasm right out of me.
So, what I’m writing now is kind of lifeless, which means I’m really slogging through it. I’d love to skip ahead and get to the fun stuff, but I need to get this stuff written so that when I start the revisions I can tweak it to make it more relevant and interesting to the reader, because, as we all know, you can’t fix up what’s not written down.
Maybe I’m strange, but even just knowing what the problem is seems to go a long way toward solving it. Now that I know why it’s so hard for me to write this I can push through, knowing that it’s just temporary and will get better.
And since I’m really looking forward to some upcoming scenes, I’m using them to motivate me to keep going through this part.
But I do finally seem to be settling in to where I’m able to just write and not worry so much about the fact that some of this is going to get moved, rewritten, or outright deleted. (Yes, sometimes I write even knowing that what I’m writing will be deleted. I don’t do it to pad word count, but to keep up forward momentum so I can reach a place where stuff doesn’t suck.)
(I am also, for some reason, having a really hard time with Jacob’s “voice,” which isn’t helping the process a whole lot.)
But all in all, I’m more or less pleased with the way it’s going and am still confident that I can reach my goal by the end of the month.
Now, if I’m still nine to twelve thousand words behind by Friday, then I’ll worry…