Well, this sucks.
I’m behind on word count already: too many things have been getting in the way and distracting me. It’s my own fault: I took on too many projects, didn’t get them completed, and began feeling really overwhelmed, which has led to feeling like I’ll never get out of this hole I’ve dug myself into, especially with getting more hours at work, so what’s the point of even trying?
I don’t like that line of thinking. It’s a defeatist attitude and I am not a defeatist – I’m a defeater.
Ha! Take that, life!
So, what do you do when you’re behind on word count and have a ton of other things hanging over your head?
Well, what I’m doing is starting one new thing (an old standby to get me turned around) and actually cutting back on the writing.
Wait, what? Cutting back on the writing when I’m already behind? Am I nuts?
No, hear me out. I’m not quitting or giving up on NaNoWriMo. I still fully intend to make my word count goals. But in order to do that I have to free up some energy for it, and currently my energy is spent hiding from things that need to be done, so…
I’m going to keep writing every day, but only trying for 500 or so words. Not enough to get me caught up or to keep me from falling further behind, but enough to keep some sort of flow going.
My main focus, though, is going to be on other projects, namely the pocket letters that should have been mailed a couple weeks ago. Once I get them done I’ll focus harder on writing because I’ll be able to focus harder on writing. Right now when I try to write I keep thinking of the other things that I should be doing, and that really sucks the energy out of me.
Oh, that new old thing that I’m starting? It’s a Gift Journal. Every day I’ll list at least three “gifts” I’ve received that day. They don’t have to be physical, tangible things… It can be a sunny morning, the sound of fall leaves rustling in the breeze (I love that sound), a cuddle from one of my rats (usually Peter or Parson), something someone says… anything that gives your spirits a boost and shifts your focus from the doldrums to joy, because…
Well, think about it. When you’re feeling happy and excited about something you have the energy to take on the world. When you’re feeling down you can barely eat dinner.
So, yeah, time for a shift in focus – on all levels.
And I’m still gonna “win” NaNoWriMo.