I’ve been… stuck… this week. I’ve gotten very little writing done. I just can’t seem to focus but I’m not sure why. I want to write, but it seems that all I do is stare at the screen. I can’t even seem to focus on paper, which is one of my tried and true ways around writer’s block.
At first I though that the problem might be that this book isn’t the one I want to be writing. The events in this book are important in later books, especially regarding character development, but I seem to have lost my plot.
That’s not really the problem, though. I’ve lost plots before and muddled through until I found them again. In fact, I usually enjoy the search for the lost plot.
So, I thought that maybe it was the character, that this isn’t the character I want to focus on right now.
But I don’t think that that’s quite the problem either, although it’s getting closer.
I think that a large part of the problem is what I’m writing. I’m writing about bullying, and having never experienced it I’m having trouble getting into the mindset of it.
I’m not having trouble connecting with the victim – it’s the ones that are doing the bullying that I’m having trouble with.
Granted, I don’t really need to be inside their heads or sympathize with them at all, but I do need to understand why, and…
I don’t get it.
I don’t understand why they are bullying Senzu just because she is different.
I understand that she is not human, that her race was created during the Wizard Wars, and that they do not mingle with humans so they are not something the average person is familiar with.
I understand the concept of “other” but what I don’t understand is why “other” equals “less than.”
And because of that I’m having a really hard time with the antagonists in this story.
I can more or less understand the other antagonists in the series – the bad guys for the over-arching plot. They are all about power – either wanting it or fearing those that have it.
I just don’t get it. I don’t get prejudice or being afraid of something because it is different and unknown.
Come to think of it, that’s going to be a problem, as prejudice and fearing and hating things that you don’t understand are recurring themes in the series.
Looks like I have some research to do…
But I still don’t think I’ll ever “get it.”